Discipline: A first time for everything…

When I say I have been thinking about discipline for as long as I can remember, I mean that. I didn’t have the vocabulary or context when I was younger, to differentiate between the concepts of punishment and discipline, but if I had to sub-categorize my spanking fetish, I’d lodge it under discipline. When I first entered the scene, I had similar ideas of what relationships between spankos looked like as most probably do – my ideas were from stories and the fiction of the stories turned out to be just as much fiction in real life. The reality is, very few people successfully do DD or other discipline based kink dynamics, 24/7/365. I’d argue most don’t and if speaking candidly, they’d probably admit that. Some won’t – and those are also relationships that are likely unsustainable. I’ve talked about why a lot before but it boils down to the fact that we are all adults and even when giving up control and wanting to give up control, we still have to actually do life. Those it works for, are most aware of that, and allow flexibility.

Buckle up, this is going to be a long one.

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Fiction: Bedtime for an Impertinent Girl

I wrote this story in the Fall of 2023 when I was quite sick for several weeks with a bad asthma exacerbation and bronchitis. I had a lot of time to fall into my head and fantasize, daydream, think about spanking, etc. At the same time, a green sweater I found on eBay from Flynn & O’Hara, to match a black watch plaid kilt, tie, and green knee socks I’d already purchased, arrived in the mail. A complete uniform, from a school in a neighboring state. I put the whole kit on one day when I had a bit more energy, and took some photos, admired myself in the mirror, and allowed myself to fall into a fantasy about it. After the jump is the photo that inspired the story here, and the story itself. It’s only ever been shared with one other and I hadn’t re-read it nearly since I wrote it, but I’m rather fond of it. Uniform feels even further away than kink more generally right now, and has for months, so I am re-reading old personal writings in an attempt to feel that connection again. As for the title, it is a pre-bedtime story, so don’t expect pajama spanking here. There are three photos here – the original one that inspired it plus two bonus ones at the end. The story has some daddy vibes, those being some of my favorites. I hope you don’t mind.

It is M/F, semi-cons, includes uniform, line writing, and temperature taking.

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Adult Uniform Collection

Someone recently asked me about my uniform collection and my favorites. The way I do uniform with Paul, isn’t so much about what I like or want (which makes it discipline, obvs.) but I do enjoy it of course (acknowledging yet again that enjoy is complicated). I don’t wear them otherwise, because it’s not about the typical naughty school girl role-play, and that’s what most people want.

So, my favorite is whatever he wants me to wear and will enjoy seeing me in – though I do have versions that I particularly like! I like the way the pleats of a kilt look more than a box pleat skirt, for example. I love my gymslip but getting my tie flat under and the sash right are added details. It’s a uniform, not a dress, but it’s not the most…flattering? item of clothing I own. There’s a part of me that loves that it is practical and functional and so very clearly uniform, and still looks cute without being about how flattering it is (and of corse, flattering is subjective because Paul loves the gymslip). It is not meant to be fashion – it’s meant to be uniform. It also makes me feel more like a child than any of my other uniform pieces, which…is certainly a thing.

Anyway. Finding uniform items in adult sizes was something I thought would be very difficult. It took some work but wasn’t impossible, so I’ll share here what I have and links where I can. These are not affiliate links, just me sharing. I am an adult women’s 2X or US 18/20/22, with a 44-46” bust and very wide hips and I have found options at all of these that fit me well, not just passably.

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