That’s Show Biz, Kids!

I asked last week what folks would like to see me writing about and one of my BlueSky followers posed the following question about my time as a spanking model: How did you start doing it, and what are your thoughts about it now, looking back at leaping into it?

This is something I talk about fairly openly to my friends or people that know me, but I am not sure I have ever written about it or mentioned it here – or on most of my blogs since I stopped doing videos – which I only did for a short period during the summer of 2007, and once or twice after that in 2008. I knew I wanted to make spanking videos from the moment I stumbled upon my first, during a clandestine and furtive internet search in the summer of 2001, while I was awake far too late using my grandparents dial up internet. I won’t do the math for you, but I was entirely too young to have both unfettered access to the internet and to be watching porn – but alas, here we are wink. If you’re particularly curious, it was a Dallas video. I was astonished. I came back to his videos as the years went on and eventually saw his videos with Sierra Salem. That’s when I knew I wanted to blog and make videos, also!

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Fiction: A Towel and a Surprise

I originally wrote this on March 10, 2010 – 15 years ago – for a previous blog. It was a fantasy inspired by a regular play partner at the time who I had a discipline dynamic with. Something that felt like he would do, but never did. So I wrote it as a story. I stumbled back upon it recently and really enjoyed it still, so I’m sharing it here.

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Reconciling Kink Expressions Through Fiction – and stuff

Something that occurred to me recently, was the reconciling I have had to do, between the parts of my kink I actively engaged with for the last 15 years (the daddy stuff as I call it) and the parts I avoided (the uniform and discipline stuff). They don’t exist in conflict with each other at all, they’re very much complementary flavors for me, but they are not mutually exclusive. In theory, at least, they could be combined. I say in theory, because so far, the people I’ve engaged in these different types of play with, haven’t had much overlap. I suppose you could argue that there is a certain amount of caregiving in the uniform/discipline stuff I’ve talked about, and you’d be right, but it depends on the person whether that is a daddy vibe or simply…a caring authority figure (guardian? teacher? tutor? disciplinarian? mentor? – for a woman, I’d choose governess, but that’s complicated for me) vibe. Figuring it out is important, though. Exploring it in thought, writing, doing.

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