words and pictures

It’s clear, given the fact that I am attempting to revive the spanko blogging of yesteryear, that the written word is important to me. I’ve always enjoyed hand writing things and rarely took notes via my computer in college even. I keep a physical daily planner, I have a thing for pens. Of course, typing has its place. It’s not any less writing. Importantly, I can edit and revise and really make sure I am going to be understood. Hand writing is good for a first draft or something personal. I digress – the point was not typing vs hand writing but the written word versus pictures. Luckily, we don’t have to pick one or the other, but there is often debate amongst spankos, especially those who perused the early internet (Usenet, anyone else?). Writing – stories, long form writing (like blogging) and the back and forth of forum conversations, hold a special place. I have a vivid imagination that runs like a movie reel, so when I read a spanking story, it plays like that in my mind.

Although I “grew up” in text based spaces like Usenet, Yahoo groups, forums, IRC, AIM, etc etc – photos speak to me as well. Early digital cameras were a revelation. The ability to capture a moment, and ideally (or potentially?) a feeling, feels like magic. When I play with someone, the goal is never photos, but I do enjoy having photos to look back on if we manage to get some. I also enjoy taking photos primarily for myself, or a select few people I enjoy spank-flirting with. Sometimes these are casual snaps of my bottom in a mirror and sometimes they’re more orchestrated, using a timer or tripod. Those ones, often for myself, are intended to capture and evoke a feeling. I know photos aren’t resonant for everyone, but they really can be for me, and not just of myself. Because this post will contain more than one photo, I’ll put a jump here for anyone who might be trying to read in public.

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Checking In

I know I wrote a few weeks ago, that I’d like to write about my time in Las Vegas – but I may hold off on that for a while. The unfortunate reality is that I contracted COVID earlier in the week when I arrived to Vegas for a friends wedding, very sadly missed the wedding, got Paxlovid, and hoped to test negative to be able to attend the party with my friends. I did test negative on Friday (and Saturday), but I also was not allowed to attend the party. I was at the party hotel, in a party block of rooms, but wasn’t allowed to attend party events. I was pretty devastated by this and remain upset about it, but I probably won’t be saying anything else on the topic publicly.

My friends took very good care of me, but a lot of people attending the party who saw me in public spaces made a point of avoiding me and it was an emotionally difficult weekend for me. Although the weekend was difficult for a lot of complex reasons and I had a pretty hard time, it wasn’t a bad weekend. Overall, it was pretty great. I got spanked a few times (and did a few new things!), had a fun movie night with some friends and got to spend time with others. I met some folks in person for the first time after chatting online for months. I would like to write about some of that play, but we’ll see.

After I got home, a week after testing negative, I tested positive with rebound COVID and had to isolate from my husband and daughter. Then near the end of September, I left on a week-long cruise that I had been planning for a year, so the last month has been very full. I’ve got a lot in my head and we’ll just have to see what I feel comfortable getting out of it.

-M

Fiction & Fantasy

Like most spankos, I am no stranger to spanking stories. I literally cut my baby spanko teeth on Laura’s Spanking Corner when I was cough 12 cough. I devoured as many stories as I could get my hands on – mostly stories by SamPast, Haley Brimley, Mary Catherine (linked here), and many others (I’d mention more of them but since their websites no longer exist, it seems unfair – the three above can be found on their own sites – linked on here, or the Spanking Library – which I refuse to link to but recognize is quite the repository). I read these spanking stories and longed to write my own. Before I had a computer, I was hand writing them. Risky. I would rip them up and throw them in the trash. I couldn’t trust anyone so I didn’t keep a journal for any significant period of time. When I got a computer however, I wrote voraciously. Most of these stories don’t exist anymore and only existed when they did to get what was in my head, out of it. The truth is, whenever I’ve written stories, the fantasy has been incredibly important to me. Almost all the stories I’ve written are based on true events or deeply held, well thought out fantasies of my own – in which I feature as the main character! But that doesn’t always make for the best writing, if I’m honest. I’d argue stories I wrote in the past where I wasn’t explicitly the main character, are pretty bad – still mostly wank fodder and just not very good stories.

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