I actually haven’t been to Loch Lomond yet, on this trip, but it’s on the list! Hello, hello! I am SLACKING. I owe y’all June, July, and August book round ups (confession: I don’t think I finished a single one in August actually?!) and at the minimum, an UPDATE on where I am! I also have a nearly finished post on community, friendship, endings, etc. ready to go. I’ve also been toying with the idea of starting a podcast? Is that crazy? Maybe. We’ll see. Anyway, I moved to Scotland – that’s the big news I needed to follow up on. Of course, it’s a temporary move, but we are finally settled now, 8 weeks in, and I can’t imagine leaving in January. I absolutely love it.
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Busy Bee
June has been B-U-S-Y! Started the month by attending the Scotland v Bolivia warm up game prior to the World Cup. Although we only live about 35 minutes from MetLife stadium, I missed the lottery sign ups and then ticket prices were way out of budget for us to attend. This was really fun because we got to see the Scotland and Bolivian national teams anyway! And Scotland played really well. It was a lot of fun. Going back to one of my previous posts, I tried the face sunscreen from the Korean skincare brand I use daily, CosRX, and had a terrible experience with it. I didn’t do any sort of patch test or anything because I have been using CosRX products for so long with no issue, but I wore the CosRx Vitamin E Vitalizing Sunscreen to the Scotland game, and the next day had a TERRIBLE reaction all along my chin, around my mouth, and nose. I was clearly allergic to something in it. My face was itchy and dry/flakey for days.
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I have my April book round up post in the works – I didn’t forget. It’s just that May has been very busy. Ever heard of the month of May being called “Maycember” for folks with kids? It’s because it’s so near the end of school that it often feels like the business of December/the holiday season. We’ve had a piano recitals, birthday parties, field trips, and lots of other goings on. I am also not being spanked so it’s pretty boring.
Kink feels so far away lately. When it’s lacking, I feel disconnected from myself and my identity, on top of my friendships. I’ve been struggling. I have, annoyingly, been having nightmares about Firefly, which is fun. Then heartbreaking dreams about Elephant. My sleep is absolutely shot between those and the other insecurities and frustrations invading my headspace. This has been a complicated year, so far. I’ve spent a lot of it sad and hurt and now spend a lot of it frustrated and angry with myself, back to square one with being unable to trust myself, my wants, my needs, anything. I haven’t attended parties, I’m barely participating in online spaces. I don’t see a point. Making myself vulnerable in this context is too risky.
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